I do not FEEL depressed at all and have not FELT depressed since late August / early September. The FEELINGS of depression have been entirely missing the last two months. I don’t FEEL low or down. I don’t FEEL bad about myself or my circumstances. I don’t FEEL suicidal. I don’t FEEL. For the past three or four weeks, I just don’t FEEL at all.
Two requests before you continue reading:
1) Don’t call the police. Read.
2) Don’t make it better. Listen.
I’m sharing my struggle with Veteran’s Day – my struggle with living as a Veteran – for the first time. I know I haven’t fleshed it all out, but it’s a start. In the midst of what I’ve been reading today, I would like you to hear and share my ongoing experience as a US Military Veteran.
I was almost ready to pick up my toys and go back into the closet, to tell you all it was just a phase, just something I needed to try on, and then go back to being a proper man who is attracted to proper women.
I am a member of the Beer ‘n Hymns community in Portland, OR. In September, John Burnett, religion correspondent for NPR, joined us for an evening to write a report based on our program for his. His report aired on Sunday, Nov 2. Audio and a written transcript are available here:
You know how you mention the slightest thing “wrong” with your diet or the tiniest of sniffles, your well-meaning friends jump in with all their detox cleanses and fad diets to straighten you out, but then, when you really do want diet advice, everyone is embarrassed to share? Well, I’m asking for advice and I really hope you give it. Forget the filters, abandon the second guessing. Give me everything you’ve got.